Wow what a life!

Heaven on earth! That's what comes up for me as I sit looking out the window of Kelly B's office at his retreat home, Shangri-La in Santa Cruz. Life is sooo full. Last week I was in New York City, tirelessly rehearsing until the wee hours of the night with Bellydance diva Jehan, (goddessdance.org) to get ready for a duet at a Samhain gathering. Today I am as far from the bustle and hustle of the New York City streets as one can imagine. The greenery here in Santa Cruz feels healing and serene to my soul. As nourishing as dancing and performing was to me last week, this is like soul food for my nervous system. I seem to live my life to both extremes, feeling at home either as the city slicker or the country bumpkin.
Last night I was invited to co-lead a puja with Kelly Bryson aka Kelly B. We had a lot of fun putting together the event, taking lots of love making breaks along the way. We both laughed at how great it was to co-create like this. I really am feeling inspired by my sexuality, a big change from where I was during the last years of my open marriage, where pain and the ache of letting go was the theme of the day. I really am in a much better place and so is Tim, my wasband. We still talk and coo to each other over the phone, but monogamy doesn't feel a fit for me as it did for him. What can I say? He is vasopressin and I am all oxytocin, which are the neurochemical secretions linked to monogamy and polyamory, respectively. So our chemistry was askew. Simple. But way complicated when we choose a partner even when chemistry isn't lined up. Karmic debt I am thinking. Anyway last night was an exquisite experience of yum and delight. The best part was a dear friend and colleague from the area, Kat said to me afterwards, "You give good puja!" It sure does help having toured with Shakti Shen all those years when she and I did the "Tantra:Yoga of Love" workshops across the country. Her poetry and presence always puts me in a tantric trance of sorts. Something about those crystalline blue eyes of hers! Anyway today I am off to the Loving More conference in San Francisco. I feel so much gratitude for life. For freedom. For my teachers on this path. Blessed be!

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